From Isaiah 43
“…Fear not for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior …”
“Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland…”
I had forgotten about the post I sent you to yesterday. It kind of gives me chills.
So that’s what I’m expecting God to do. That’s what I’m waiting for. Rivers in the badlands, streams in the desert. An Eden out of the wasteland. So I’m going to stay home (Lord, don’t make me get a job!) & focus on that. Being alert & present. Because Satan is in the guilt that paralyzes. And God’s got bigger things for me.
That post was written more than a year before Jason would enter into the police consortium testing process, more than a year before Michelle died, and almost 2 years before I would start my new job. He sees the bigger picture doesn’t he? And so he should, he’s the artist.
That year that I stayed home, God taught me how to just be with him. He taught me how to be quiet. How to enjoy his presence without having any expectations. It was a sweet year, as I learned how to experience God’s love a little more deeper.
He knew that I would need that year. He knew that what he taught me, such as his deep love for me, would be the one thing that I would return to after I was done wrestling him. It was the one thing that I never questioned. It was the only thing about him that I knew to be true.
Here is another verse that stuck with me over the past couple of years:
I will betroth you to me forever;
I will betroth you in righteousness
in love and compassion,
I will betroth you in faithfulness,
and you will acknowledge the Lord.
He is good. But he is so much more.